Big Booter's Beef

Its so early right now.

2004-09-28T15:17:41Z

I know its only 10, but I've been up for two and a half hours already. My room is a gigantic mess and I need to mop the kitchen floor again because a BIG K Cherry Cola two-liter exploded last night when me and Ryan were making dinner, needless to say, it is still a little sticky. Didn't do anything last night and it was awesome, went to Ryan's and we passed out at around 11. I love that Eliot is now living with us, he is such a fun kid. Alex is being a little skeazy hoe right now though saying that he made cornbread a couple nights ago and still hasn't cleaned up the dishes yet. What a gravy dousche. Anyway, this past weekend was fun. Friday, I worked which kind of sucked, then I went to my friend Huey's house and hung out with some Scholar's kids and then went to Misty and Jeff's birthday party at Stevey's house. That was fun, Emily spun fire which was really cool to watch. Saturday night we went to Jay Busch's for a bit and then left to come home and just party on the front porch. Anna, Kara, and I proceeded to a random party a couple houses down and pretty much got shitfaced. It was very nice to see Johanna Pollack. Went to Sunday bar, well, obviously on Sunday, and had a lot of fun. Everyone was there, which was nice, well, until Stefan punched some random bitch from Collins, and he cried like a little girl. What a gravy dousche. Ryan's now playing with Johnny Fallout which I think is pretty rockin, and Phil is playing with The Nicotones which is also pretty rockin. Wish I didn't have to work on weekends so I could see my boys in action. Anna is studying Spanish right now in her room, and it is fucking freezing in here. Two words: space heater. Well, I'm' outtie five thousand.
Jocelyn
I can't believe Britney got married.

Shit and more shit!

2003-06-12T16:25:44Z

Well, things have been going okay. Kyle got arrested a few nights ago, that wasn't too exciting, I got really drunk at Uncle E's that night, chatted with Colin alot, then Ryan and Derek and Dedrick came in, I was so worried about them, I thought they all got arrested too. Sitting in K201 right now, not very exciting, I'm getting 53 right now in here. Oh well, I hate this shit anyway. Anna's having a party tonight, didn't have to go to work the past two nights. Work tomorrow night though, my first night shift, I'm a little worried. Its so awesome having Dedrick in town. Hey Sarah! What up? I need your email address, I would like to give me my digits, but unfortunately not over live journal. My email is jasimes@indiana.edu. I hope to hear from you soon as I would love for you to come up and visit. Gonna wash some clothes today, and maybe clean up the house. Things are going better with my parents. My mom in't crying everytime I talk to her. Well, class is over.
Big Booter said what up.

This weekend!

2003-05-30T15:42:44Z

Well, tonight is the Nicotones show, which is kind of exciting. Last night, I went over to Sonal's to drink some beers and have a good time. Which I did. We watched the San Antonio and Dallas Basketball game, the Spurs won, so Dallas got knocked out in the semis. Then Ryan stopped by out of no where which was pretty crazy. I was super happy to see him, but he was getting tired and wanted to take off, I really didn't want to leave Anna because she is the love of my life, but I left early to only get into a political debate, no fight, with yelling, with Ryan while we were walking back. I don't understand, well no, I do understand that money can make people different, but I don't think it should. And we have nothing to do about it, we grow up in an environment that our parents provided for us, no matter what it is. Whether we have money or not, I don't really think that means that we need to think totally different t things, I think people find faults in every class, no one is really happy with what they are doing, so why do we argue about it? I don't know, it just pissed me off. So tonight should be fun, I hope the after party doesn't suck. Tomorrow night, I'm kind of hoping to have a party at my house. I think that would be a lot of fun. Sunday I want to go to the Agnostic Front show in Chi-town but I have a midterm on Monday that I'm kind of worried about, I don't want to fail it. I also have another test on Wednesday that I'm definitely not looking forward to. I think the weekend will be fun though. I have three weeks left here. So I want to have as much fun as I can, saying that at home, life is going to be hell, the deep depression, I sense, will set in, and the person that we all know and love as Jocelyn, will exist no longer, the only thing left, will be Big Booter. Well, at least, I still believe in hardcore, and the streets will never be forgotten.
Big Booter

Damn it!

2003-05-23T15:08:35Z

Well, I'm in K201 right now, what's the point of going into a computer room for a lecture on powerpoint. I did horrible last semester so I have to do good this one and next in order to keep going to school. I think my dad just said all the shit that he did so it was scare the shit out of me. He said that I would be back home, yeah right, I don't plan on leaving Bloomington for a while. I'm 18, and I don't have to listen to you if I don't want to. I know that you are paying for my schooling, but once you stop, that is if you do, I'm gone, I won't probably talk to them ever again. I feel bad for my little brother, but I will still talk to him. I hate having to do things that I don't want to do, because my parents are paying a whole shit load of money for me to go to school. I don't even know if I want to go to school anymore, right now I don't. I don't know, I know that if I fuck up again then I would regret it, because I already regret last semester. Dedrick is moving here, so I'm excited about that. I have a headache. Hi Sarah! How are you? I miss you a lot, I wish you were here all the time. Things are going good here. Wish you were here, now! Well, there are some asshole kids looking at pictures of Mercedes-Benz's right next to me, what a bunch of assholes. Oh well, I'm gonna go now, and pay attention again, she's talking about how important technology is to our society, I know how important it is, I'm not that dumb.
Love always,
Big Booter

I have a headache.

2003-05-05T23:06:26Z

Well, today was eventful, or was it? Packing up all my shit to move to my brother's house. Didn't realize that I had a final due by 5 today, but got it done by 5:03. Bought cigarettes, been hanging out with Anna a lot, which is fucking great. Went to Steak and Shake last night with Ryan and Derek and Anna, we walked to my brother's house in the pouring rain, and then hopped in the newly fixed Hyundai, hell yeah its newly fixed. I got cheddar fries and a lime freeze. Dropped the boys off and then Benjamin gave us a ride back to Collins.
I wish things were back to normal, even though I know that they will never be again. I know that when a friendship falls apart, its the error of the both of the friends. To me, one person can never terminate a friendship. However, if the other does not seem to care that its ending, then its over. Apologies from both sides will never come, and I know that. Oh well, it couldn't have been that great if its over already.
I sometimes wonder why pez tastes so good, but then I realized, it just does.

Crazy, I'm crazy for feeling, so blue....

2003-04-28T19:17:25Z

Shit, shit, shit. I hate everything. Just got done smashing beer cans with Anna. It was exciting. Feel very suffocated. Can't breathe at all. Want out, but don't know where to go. Feel like I'm in high school again, but why? High school sucked ass. I think the pill is making me go crazy. Yes, crazy, Patsy Cline. I don't understand anything anymore. Depressed with how I am and what I am turning out to be. I feel like no one gives a fuck about me. I don't understand how someone could be my friend, I'm such a loser. Shit, I'll wake up tomorrow and be fifty and alone, that's gonna suck so bad. Anna, you rock my world, and I'm so glad that you cheered me up, I owe you one.

Easter Sunday is here to stay!

2003-04-20T18:06:23Z

Just got back from church and starting to eat my Easter candy. Exciting stuff indeed!!! I will probably be leaving for B-town around 4ish I would say, it only took us around 3 hours to get to the Region yesterday, so I would say I'll be home around 7 or 8ish tonight. I hope everyone had fun last night, thanks Anna for keeping your eye on Gregory for me. Its not that I don't trust him, its just that maybe I don't have enough self-confidence to think that he wouoldn't do something like that. Oh well, see everyone tonight. Cassandra, I love when you hang out with us, I never once thought that you would invite yourself over, you are always welcome anytime, day or night!!! We love you, and we love hangin gout with you!!! Keep it real!
Love always, Big Booter

Sweet Home, The Region!

2003-04-19T21:35:33Z

Well, I'm gonna take off to the Region pretty soon. I'm gonna miss the fun tonight that is 2nd and Park. Well, its not like the fun hasn't been done before, I just hate being the only one that is gonna miss it. I hope everyone has a fun time tonight, and I will post later.
Big Booter for life.

Big_Booter is being held for ransom by me!

2003-04-09T02:27:02Z

Yes its true, Big Booter has not posted in quite sometime, and there is a reason for that. Big Booter is currently being held captive at my secret lair. No one will ever know the whereabouts of this location or that it is on the second floor of Cravens room C024. I trust you all to know that this Miss Crack Rock steady has a reward out for Big Booter, but pay no attention to that, she just wants to break up with Big Booter have choosing two other occupants for her project. Don't let Big Booter know this for it would break her little tender heart. well this is all, Big Booter says hi to all that cares about her in her weakened condition. That is all.

Ooopppsss

2003-03-23T16:02:17Z

Sorry, wrong apartment number.

You were always on my mind!

2003-03-23T16:00:40Z

Hey all!!! I'm home, finally!!! Last night was exciting, so was the night before that. So recap to Friday night, Sonal and her mom pick me up and we drive to jack's house in Lafayette. We had a lovely dinner there and we soon departed with Jack in his father's automobile to drive down here to lovely Bloomington, IN. I told the boy, actually I told Jordan I would be arriving around 1 or 2 ish, saying that he was the only skinhead I could get a hold of. I got back into B-town around 12:30. I had precise directions to get to the boy's new apartment from Mr. Trendelman, and so after arriving, I walked to the apartment, unfortunately, the directions were not as precise as I thought they were. Apartment 13, through the middle door. Well, no apartment 13 through the middle door. I finally found lucky ole 13 and banged the fuck on that door, and nobody anwsered. So there's me, the dumbass, bangingon somebdoy's door and 1:00 in the morning. I walk up to the nearest phone, which is the Courtyard Marriot's phone, which they let me use for free which was nice, and called Jordan's house, nobody anwsered. So I walk back to the apartment complex, and I came up unsuccessful once again. I see Derrick's truck, I know there here somewhere, I thought, nope. So I walk my skinny ass to Jordan's house and nobody is home. Then I finally walk back to Sonal's house, around two hours after leaving it. So I drank some beers, smoked alittle, and hit the sack. Next day, I call JOrdan's house, and he asked me why I never stopped by Ryan's place the night before cause he waited up for me until 4. Well, you can imagine my reaction after that comment, "Big guy, you gave the right apartment number." Well, they weren't there anyway, Derrick was, drunk as fuck, with a black eye after Dave punched him. I saw him yesterday and its not looking to pleasant. Today it looks even worse. he kind of looks like early David Bowie, poor Derrick, poor kid can't hold his liquor, but who can? So hung out with Ryan, finally, last night, watched Smokey and the Bandit, and listened to Johnny Cash and Hatebreed with him, Derrick, Dave, and Josh. Good times indeed. I wish my ladies were here right now, that would be nice. Anna is probably driving here right now with Caroline, Sarah is probably flying at 38000 ft. right now, and Sheena, well, I don't know where Sheena is, but I miss her too!!! Hurry up and get here, so the party can begin!!!
Jocelyn

B-town, here I come!

2003-03-21T04:52:41Z

Yo yo, I'll be back in B-town on Friday night late, if anyone cares. Ryan got an apartment, which I'm pumped about, close to town, which I'm also pumped about, Someone on Grant Street. Went to Border's today with the little brother, got into a fight with mom and older bro, about the same thing that we've been arguing about all week. I don't think anyone's opinions were changed, except for my feelings keep getting hurt. I miss my ladies, I'll see you all soon. Looks like the war is on.
Peace.

You can fix my ass!

2003-03-18T05:15:46Z

Hey hey, well, all I have to say is that things suck ass in the Region. Since Benjamin cut his dreadlocks off, I am getting shit constantly from the folks. Jocelyn's not doing good in school, Joeclyn looks like a boy, Jocelyn take out your nose ring, Jocelyn don't dye your hair or cut it, Jocelyn you fucked up the car when you hit a deer, you owe us $250! I can't take it anymore!!! I miss B-town like its my job!!! Actually the deer thing might need some explaining, I came home from the Flogging Molly show, which kicked ass by the way, and I was just relaxing from the beating I took in the pits, when my bro's friend came in and asked if I could drive his girlfriend home, I said fine so I did, and on the way back, it was foggy as fuck, and I hit a deer. I really couldn't have done anything about it, it ran out less than five feet in front of me. I hit the back side of him, and he get going, I don't think I killed it, but the hood of the car got all fucked up and I have to pay for it to get fixed. I don't have that cash, so my brother asked to pay half for it, which was nice. Just got back from hanging out with my friend Jen. Things are going okay for her, she's going to Las Vegas on Thursday. I want to go to the Hatebreed show on Friday, but don't really know if I'll have the cash to do it. I talked to Anna yesterday which was nice. I miss her a lot, and my other homies. Caroline and Sarah I miss you guys too!!! Sarah, I can't believe she was fifteen!!! I still can't believe. I had fun going to breakfast with you and hanging out with Diddle, Stacey, and Allen. That was messed up. Caroline, I hope all is well with Jack, and that you are having fun in Oberlin. Anna, I miss you like crazy!!! When are you heading back??? I want to go back on Friday, I think it really depends on if Derrick and Ryan are going to come to the Hatebreed show or not, if they do, I'll probably just get a ride back with them, if not, I'll get a ride down with my bro during the day on Friday. Talked to Ryan last night, he called me a deer killer! That bastard! He's getting his tattoo tomorrow which he's excited about, plus Colin is going to some kind of tattoo convention and he needs more things to go in his portfolio, so he might give Ryan his webs on his elbows for free, which totally kicks ass. I don't think I'd ever miss someone as much as I miss Ryan. Its sad really, I saw him on Friday, and its only Monday! Shit, I miss that boy so much. Oh well, at least I'll see him soon. I'm watching Field of Dreams right now, I like that movie. Well, I miss my ladies, Sheena baba I miss you too, I don't know if you know my name on here or not, but when are you heading back? I MISS MY LADIES AND MY MAN!!! AND I MISS B-TOWN!!! Oh well, at least its nice outside.

Live from the homestead

2003-03-10T04:57:11Z

Hey hey, at home right now, listening to some soccer game that my little bro and cousin are playing, Fifa 2002. Sounds exciting, ooh, someone just got a red card. Nice. Ate too much tonight, Aurelio's pizza, my favorite. Mushroom and sausage. Went to the wake today for my grandma. She looked nice, but it was sad to see her like that. I just wanted to see her move her hand or breathe or something like that. I just wanted her to move so I knew she would be okay but she never did. Even though I knew she was dead, I still wanted her to sit up and say hi Jocelyn, when did you get here? Saw a lot of relatives today, note to self, never sleep naked when relatives are over, they like to wake you up. Miss B-town and my ladies and Ryan, wish they all could have been here with me. I know it would have made me feel more comfortable about the situation, but sometimes I cause you just have to deal with things on your own. My family basically kept to themselves, dealing with the problem at hand in their own ways. After the priest said his closing prayer, my older brother stood up and thanked my mom for holding the family all together through my grandma's last months. I was surprised to see my brother tearing like that, and it made me cry a lot more. It was good to see that everyone dealt with it together in the same room, and not states apart. Its sad to say that deaths bring families closer together but it does. Going to be back home tomorrow night around dinner time. Funeral is tomorrow around 10. Its gonna be cold as balls, but a defining moment for a lot of us. Will update tomorrow.
What up to my ladies!! I miss and love you, will see you tomorrow. Stay out of trouble, and don't trash my room too bad.

Home Sweet Home

2003-03-08T15:38:52Z

After a stressful day yesterday, I decided to hang out with the ladies last night, aka Sarah, Anna, and Sheena. We went to a rock show which was a lot of fun, except for some of it sucks major assage. Ryan's band played well, which was nice to see. And so did Patrick. I was a little pissed off last night that the boy didn't come home with me, so I pretty much remained in a sour mood the rest of the evening while I was freezing my ass off. Left the show a little steamed, and went to the bro's house, where all the usuals were. I left when a bunch of chodes walked in and that made me feel uncomfortable. Frat boys are chodes for several reasons, but it could be the fact that they high five each other everytime they do something, alright, went to the bathroom high five, alright, fell down the stairs, high five. I don't mind a good high five for a good occasion or maybe even a really LAME one, but come on, I'm a girl, and so are my friends. ITs like Puddy on Seinfeld, the high five episode, funny shit man. Then I headed to 2nd and Park to find my ladies, but they had already fled the scene. I saw Skinhead Kyle there, and we chatted for a bit, which was nice. Bruce walked me home and me and him had a very interesting conversation about something, it cleared alot of things up to me, why he is the way he is, especially when he is around girls. Couldn't sleep last night, laid awake for a couple hours. Thinking about going home and seeing tears, which makes me sad, cause I don't want to see my mom cry. Going home today, Anna and Sarah, I hope you read this just in case I don't see you before I leave. I will miss you two, and Caroline and Sheena, like bonkers!!! I'll give you guys a call sometime, I don't know who's room you'll be in, but I"ll try them all. Well, I think this first live journal message was a complete success, wow, I actually do feel a little better about myself now. Nice. Well, au revoir.